Wednesday, April 27, 2011

Mia Does, Indeed, Save the Day

We have just returned from a most nightmarish experience in Maryland with broken hearts. The baby we have been waiting for and into whom we have invested so much emotional energy and so many financial resources is not ours after all. After days of rocking, caring for, and loving her we feel a huge loss. One of the hardest parts (as it is with most trials) is shifting what we'd imagined would be. We worry about her future and wonder about what quality of life she may now have, because instead of spending eternity with her as our daughter and Mia's sister, her birth mother chose to parent and we got to make our way home with an empty car seat.

The morning that the non-adoption decision was made, I went outside to "run" the frustration out. Feeling so disheartened I just wandered around aimlessly until Ispotted this barefoot baby and her handsome dad coming to rescue me:

...and she made it okay.

11 comments:

ashley said...

so sorry for your loss ash! is there anything i can do?

Kate said...

I can't even begin to comprehend the pain you and your family are feeling right now. I am so sorry. It breaks my heart.
I know that our Savior's atonement is real and that he can help take some of the pain away.
I am so grateful that you have sweet Mia and your handsome husband. ;)
You will be in my prayers.

The Denney's said...

Oh Ashley. I'm so sorry! You are in my prayers!

Life Is What We Make It! said...

Ashley! I'm so sorry. Mia sure is a beautiful Godsend. Cherish her. :)

Jackie said...

My heart aches for you and your family. We're sending prayers your way.

*X and AA* said...

Oh, how heartbreaking! We had a birthmother change her mind about adoption, but it was while she was still pregnant. That was hard enough, but I could not imagine it happening afterwards! That is way too hard. I'm so sorry!

Jenalee said...

I'm heart broken for you! And, I'm so happy for you that you do have your sweet Mia!

Kelli Rocha said...

Prayers and love going your way.

Celeste said...

Ashley, I'm so sad that this happened. I'm thinking about you and praying for you.

Halsey said...

Oh dear. I am so sorry! I'm glad that Mia and David are right there with you.

Devanie said...

I'm so sad for you guys- I can't even imagine how hard it is to hold the baby and have the birth-mom change her mind. I know the Lord will help you find peace and will bless that baby with tender mercies throughout her life- your prayers will not be wasted on her behalf. I know you will be guided to the other children that have been sent into this world to be a part of your family- you are an amazing, loving and wonderful woman. Sending my love across the miles!